The Art of Distraction

I don't know about the rest of you, but I sometimes struggle to pay attention.

Sometimes it's a small amount, other times my brain is like focus...focus...Hey, look! What's that?! Is that a pretty butterfly?!

I feel like it's gotten worse since I've started to notice it.

The other day I was trying to study and it took me about an hour to do two pages because every three seconds my brain would run away from me.

It would wander to my phone, to the view outside my window, to my books or even to the kitchen and every time I realized it was happening I shook my head and told myself to focus, I can do this, but it still took me forever to do something that usually would take me twenty minutes. This led me to believe that I have good days and bad days and sometimes there's nothing that I can do about that, I just need to accept it and work a little harder on the good days to make up for the bad days.

One of my friends from high school has ADHD and I've always wondered what it must be like to not be able to focus like that, I remember the teachers yelling at him to focus and stop fidgeting because he was distracting the other students. I felt like that was unfair of them since he needed to do that to get some semblance of focus and lately I've been noticing that I do the same thing without even noticing it.

I click my pen or open and close my lip balm, I stare into space for minutes at a time thinking of something that's not even related to what I'm doing or I have to read the same sentence four times.

This doesn't happen when I'm reading a book. I wonder why, because I frequently get told that I don't pay attention to movies because I like to play on my phone to keep my hands busy, but if I don't play on my phone I'm probably still day dreaming about something which defeats the point of not being on my phone anyway.

I wonder if I have some sort of disorder, at the same time I wonder why they call it a disorder? Is it because we aren't organized? I am very organized. Is it because we aren't normal? Who is normal? Or is it because they cannot understand us and that makes them think there must be something wrong with us?

Personally I don't see this as a problem, many of my friends get easily distracted or forget thing sometimes, that doesn't mean that there is something wrong with them, it just means that we need more to occupy our minds.

If anything, we're probably all geniuses.

If you feel different in any way, just remember that we were meant to be different. How boring would the world be if we all looked and acted the same? Being different isn't a bad thing, it just means you are who you are and you shouldn't let anyone try to convince you that it's not right to be who you are.

We all have our strengths and weaknesses. Having weaknesses does not make us weak, it makes us stronger, because those who fall down and get up again are always stronger than those who never fell.

Thanks for reading xx