Teenagers

Here follows a quote from one of my favorite songs:

"They said all

Teenagers scare

The living sh#t out of me

They could care less

As long as someone'll bleed

So darken your clothes

Or strike a violent pose

Maybe they'll leave you alone

But not me"

Teenagers- My Chemical Romance.

We have all been, are or will be a teenager at some point in time.

We all remember what it felt like to be that age.

The age of recklessness, the age of passionate loves, the age of tears and frustration, the age of anger and insolence, we all remember what it felt like to be a teenager.

Some of us look back on that age with nostalgia and some of us look back on it and are glad that we grew out of it.

I am an odd mix of both.

I vividly remember what it was like being that age.

I felt everything so deeply that it felt as if every emotion was going to split me into pieces.

When I cried, I sobbed.

When I loved, I adored.

When I was angry, I was furious.

When I was sad, I was depressed.

Now not everyone feels this way I'm sure but to me that was how it felt.

Nobody understood me or how I felt, sometimes I feel as if they still don't and why would they? Understanding someone, their loves, their hopes and dreams, it is difficult and not everyone can commit to someone like that.

Not everyone has time for someone like that.

Not everyone needs someone like that.

Not everyone can love someone like that.

When I was in high school I had a fair amount of friends who I thought would always be there for me but it's true what the adults said: They weren't and they aren't.

Not always because they don't want to be but simply because when you leave high school life becomes so much more complicated and we simply don't have time for everything in one single day.

As we grow older we realize that every bad day isn't a train smash and every good day isn't paradise.

You make your own happiness. Whether it's reading a good book, watching a movie, going to the pub with friends or just having Sunday lunch with your family, it all depends on you because nobody is going to push you or do it for you.

One of the reasons that I love working at the school where I am is that I feel younger and more care free when I'm there. I have responsibilities and I am mature enough to deal with them but just being surrounded by so many teenagers kind of pulls me in and swallows me up and I end up feeling as if I might be one of them, I end up laughing with them and hoping that they can make the best of life.

I wish that they know what I know.

I wish they worked harder and I wish they listened more.

I wish they followed the rules and enjoyed every second of their time at that school because I know that once they leave there they will never be able to get that feeling back.

I wish I had of done more and I can't change that, nor would I because I enjoyed it.

I made memories of slipping class and study.

I remember the struggle of homework and teachers who were strict.

I remember the rule breaking and to hell with the consequences.

I remember how I so badly wanted to grow up and escape but now that I'm here...

Now I know, like we all do, that's what teenagers do and we love them for it.

We love them and we try and guide them just as those who came before us loved us and tried to guide us.

So here's to the late nights that turned into early mornings,

to the friends who carried us home and the friends who stumbled along with us,

to the great loves and the spectacular break-ups

to the homework and the absentees

to the lessons and the disappointments.

Here is to the memories that will never die.

Thanks for reading xx