Growing Up

When I was a child I always thought that being an adult meant that you knew everything, you could do anything you wanted and having fun was a luxury.

As I got older I realized that adults didn't know everything nor could they do anything that they wanted and this greatly disturbed me because I was getting closer to growing up than I wanted to be and I was concerned that all of this time that I had spent wishing that I could be an adult so that I could do what I wanted had been wasted.

This concern caused me to come to the conclusion that I did not want to be an adult anymore and since making that decision I have done my utmost to prolong growing up.

As a child I had always loved the Disney movie: Peter Pan and Neverland had fascinated me because of the entire concept of a place without parental authority, a place where every day was an adventure or a game and it sounded amazing. Not to mention the fact that I would never have to grow up.

I often get told that I am childish because of the way I act but I feel like the people who tell me that are trying to hard to act like they are grown up when actually they all feel exactly the same way that I do, like we have no idea what we're doing.

Honestly, at this point I'm just winging it.

Now that I'm basically an adult, I obviously know that Neverland doesn't exist, which makes me inexplicably sad but at the same time I have resolved to be my own Peter Pan and create my own Neverland. I've decided that getting older doesn't mean that you have to "grow up", it just means that you get to discover new ways of having fun. You might get to have more expensive toys, you might be allowed to stay up later or you might be like me and get super excited when you get to buy new books to add to your library. Growing up doesn't always mean getting old or being mature, there is a time and a place for everything.

I turned twenty-three this year, so I am an adult, but I am quite short so I still feel like a little girl most of the time. I still sleep with a teddy bear or two on my bed, I watch Disney movies from the 1900's and my bedding is pink with butterflies on it. All of this doesn't mean that I am not mature or that I cannot make my own decisions, it just means that I have succeeded in making my own beautiful Neverland.

Thanks for reading xx